This probably makes no sense to you at all. But, I feel like I am always rata-tat-tating. You know rata-tat-tat, rata-tat-tat, rata-tat-tat. Like a drum, rata-tat-tat. Drumming away, always drumming away.
My family, they are not really my family, but I somehow feel responsible for them. It happened over a period of time. I have now come full circle, they may not want my help but they are going to get it anyway. It’s not for the adults it’s for my kids, not MY kids but their kids. They need order, they need, need, need so much.
Here’s my point, finally at the end of my rope I threw up my hands and the tears rolled down my cheeks. This family needs someone to step in and make it happen. I know I’m not making much sense but I can’t, I won’t embarrass them by saying too much.
What I want to shout to the world is the fact that there are people who care. I prayed and asked the Great Lord my God to help me know where to start. A name came to my mind, I called my person, told my story and my person said, “Let’s do it, let’s get this done.” I was stunned that someone could just jump right in and go forward. I didn’t have to beg, or plead I only had to ask. That was step number one.
Step number two followed quickly. I was down stairs in church and right there standing in front of me was the answer to my number two problem. Again all I had to do was talk about “my family” and my number two person said, “Let’s do it!”. Praise God from whom all blessings flow.
I still have several more steps and I am excited to see what God has in mind. What I do know is when I give up– God takes over. How does that always seem to surprise me? It is a lesson I must learn over and over again. God never pushes His way into anything He always seems to wait until I give up. I think that is kind of comical of God, to watch me struggle knowing I will eventually throw it into his lap.
I am still rata-tat-tating but at least when I rata-tat-tat there seems to be someone there ready to rata-tat-tat with me. I am so thankful for people who care about other people.
This experience has changed my attitude. From now on when someone needs help my new word is, “Let’s do it!”