If your thoughts were suddenly audible, what would you hear yourself promising would make you happy? I’ve done this with dark chocolate more times than I can count. After the kids are in bed, I get giddy thinking, “This is IT! THIS will make me happy. If I get this, I’ll feel complete.” I’ve felt this about ideas too. Ideas like a new dining table, going out to eat, owning a minivan. I remember feeling this when I would recognize a certain intern’s walk coming down the hall to see me. And while he turned out to be the real deal as far as a soul mate, I still find myself next to him, on my couch, gobbling chocolate. I guess I get thirsty again, which Jesus knew and told that lady by the well so she could stop being disappointed. Drink me, He said. I’m what you’re looking for.
Well I don’t know how to drink Him exactly, but I think it has to do with depending on Him like we do water. Knowing we’d die without Him. Knowing we need Him frequently, throughout our day, rather than once a week.
I’ve decided to start telling myself the truth about the good things that bring me joy. They only work because they’re a well-timed zinger of a blessing straight from the Lover of my soul. I can keep going back to the THING He gave me or I can go back to Him.
Let’s choose Him.
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. James 1:17
